27 days to go!!!

Today was a very good day at my doctors visit. Since I got my cerclage 9 weeks ago (23 weeks pregnant) my doctor has had the goal of getting me to 32 weeks into my pregnancy before delivering. He told me that he wanted me to get to 36 weeks, but since things weren't going too well he didn't want to be greedy so he would be happy if I got to 32 weeks. Well, as of today I am 32 weeks and 4 days! WAHOO for me!!! I don't want to toot my own horn, but I've survived 9 weeks of bed rest, Contractions for 9 weeks (not braxton hicks, but real contractions), low fluid level for baby A, and cervical shortening, AND I am still pregnant and both babies are doing really well. The up side to all of these problems? I get to go to the doctors office twice a week and see my beautiful little girls with an ultrasound twice a week and I get to hear their heart beats, the best sound in the world. When I visited with my doctor today I told him that I was needing some motivation to keep going since I had reached our goal and I was ready to be done. He told me that we are out of the danger zone for long term health problems, but then he mentioned a bunch of other medical problems that we could run into if I were to deliver this early, nothing life threatening, but it could mean a lot of time in the NICU. If I make it to 36 weeks I have a good chance of the babies going home with me or within a week of delivery. So, our new goal is 36 weeks. My doctor scheduled my C-Section for June 20th, 27 days to go!!! More like 26 since today is almost over :) I am so excited to have a date since my whole pregnancy I have been told that I would deliver early, but it was hard to tell how early so I'd just have to wait and see, but now I have a date to work towards. Andrew says I am so stubborn that I will make it to that date, but there is still a chance that I could deliver sooner than that if something goes wrong with my cerclage, contractions or if baby A's fluid gets too low. I am having a C-Section because baby A (the first baby to be delivered) is breech and she is smaller than her sister, both things are not good for a normal delivery. Also, since baby A's fluid level is low she is too weak to put through the stress of a normal delivery so if I tried I would most likely end up with an emergency C-Section. My doctor explained it to me as putting an already tired baby through stress of delivery making her even more tired which would be bad for her health. Is it weird that I am more afraid of a C-Section than a normal delivery? Because I am very antsy and nervous for the surgery and recovery. Plus, I really dont' want that nasty scar, but I would do anything for my little girls so I am willingly and happily preparing for a C-Section.