Not my plan

This pregnancy has been a crazy ride from the very first ultrasound. Finding out I am having twins was the biggest surprise of my life so far. When Andrew and I had decided to start a family I had a nice little plan and I expected everything to go according to plan. I am kind of a planner it's just what I do. When I found out I was having twins I read a lot about twin pregnancies and what to expect. I was surprised at how much I read talked about denial. Denial of several things and I remember thinking to myself 'well thats silly, I'm not in denial about anything with this pregnancy'. I thought to myself 'I'm not in denial about early labor. Most pregnancies go to 40 weeks and I'll probably only go to 37. Most twins spend time in the NICU, but not mine because I am going to go to 37 weeks and they are going to be healthy with no problems'. Thats what I thought to myself, and I didn't think I was in denial... silly me. Last week I was slapped in the face with reality that my pregnancy is high risk and I was forced to face the things I was in denial about. 
Three weeks ago I went in for a check up and everything was going so great and better than expected. I switched from my OB to a Perinatologist (doctor who specializes in high risk pregnancy) and he is amazing. I can't say enough good things about him and his practice. After my check up the nurses joked that if I wasn't having twins they would have to kick me out because I wasn't having any of the common problems of high risk pregnancy. I went in two weeks later (last Thursday) for another check up and my world got turned upside down. Everything changed with one ultrasound. The babies are doing fine, but I was diagnosed with an incompetent cervix. Basically my cervix was starting to shorten and it had shortened significantly in two weeks. The doctor was worried this could lead to preterm labor so Friday morning I went in for surgery to sew my cervix shut. I was so nervous for the surgery but I'd prayed a lot about it and I knew it was the best option. The surgery went really well. Afterwards they monitored me for contractions. Contractions are not normal or a common side effect of this surgery, but they are a possible side effect. As soon as they started monitoring contractions started showing up on the monitor. I couldn't feel them because I was numb from the epidural I had gotten from the surgery. They gave me some pills to stop the contractions, but after a few hours I was still having contractions and the pill wasn't working. So they gave me a shot that gave me the gitters like crazy.  The shot worked and I got to go home Friday afternoon. But Saturday Morning I started having contractions again so I went back to labor and delivery. After giving me more medication to stop the contractions they sent me home with a prescription and put me on strict bedrest. (Strict bedrest = only getting up to pee. No showers. No getting up to get a drink. No nothing other than laying down and getting up to pee). I followed doctors orders, but Sunday morning I started having contractions again. So we went back to labor and delivery and they gave me even more medication and upped the dosage of my prescription. Once the contractions stopped they sent me home again. After a long weekend in the hospital for the most part I was happy to be home even if I was on bedrest. The medicine is working pretty good. I am still having contractions every once in a while, but they are getting better. I am so grateful to the doctors I am working with. They are all so great and caring. It is nice to be able to really trust them.
So what's the plan now? I am on strict bedrest for the next week and a half until my next check up. I have come to accept that I am not going to make it to 37 weeks. I am praying to make it 29 weeks where twins have a 90% chance of survival. This week I reach 25 weeks which is a big milestone because the survival rate of twins goes from really slim to 40% chance of survival. I am trying to be strong and have faith that it will all work out. I just keep praying for 29 weeks and every week after that I will count as a blessing. 
I appreciate all the love and support I have gotten! I know there have been many prayers in my behalf, more than I am aware of I am sure, and I have felt the support and love and peace from all of those prayers. I appreciate it more than I can express. I am so grateful to have the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. The holy ghost has been such a comfort and I can see now why he is called the comforter. I am grateful for the peace of a loving Heavenly Father. 
I have to end by telling how amazing my husband is. I have the most amazing husband in the entire world. I know most women reading will think they have the best, but I know the truth, I have THE BEST HUSBAND EVER!!! Since I am on strict bedrest I can't do anything. Andrew does the grocery shopping, stops at the library to pick me up books, does the dishes, cleans the house, does the laundry, makes me dinner every night and gets me a bowl of cereal every morning before he goes to school. And then he does law school all day. And then comes home as soon as class is over to wait on me hand and foot. Also, he got our ice chest out and put it next to the couch so I can have cold drinks and snacks and some things for lunch while he is at school since I am not allowed to get up to get food or drinks. He is amazing! I don't know how he does it all. To top it all off he is a rock. He has been such a good support through all of this. I am so lucky to have him and I love him so much!!! He is such a good daddy already.
I apologize for the lengthiness of this post  with no pictures and if you have made it this far I congratulate you.